What is anxiety?
Let me tell you what I feel and perhaps you will understand what is ANXIETY Disorder meansâ€¦
I FEAR for what is going to happen in a few weeks timeâ€¦
I FEAR of loosing someone preciousâ€¦
I FEAR of legalization mattersâ€¦
I FEAR of failureâ€¦
I WORRY about just anything relates to meâ€¦
I felt WORRY about my actionâ€¦
Apprehension about my future and constantly runs wild in my mindâ€¦
Cognitively thinking in terms of dualismâ€¦
Easily emotionally towards just anythingâ€¦
Amazingly poor somatic awarenessâ€¦
I fear yet I force myself to be boldâ€¦
I am bold but I had uncertain fearâ€¦
I am happy to be with GOD but I am sad that I am sinful..
I am sad to be sinful but I am happy that I found HIMâ€¦
So many things had happen in my life till TODAY. I had been strong for the past 6 months and things just ainâ€™t going right but I am glad that I manage to discipline myself to work on my plan eventhough is it not possible and I will struggle. 6 months already, nothing looks physically improve but virtually things had gotten better.
The others will only judge on its cover and NONE will have the intention to open the cover with open heart and read till the last page. I am keeping this book for myself and I donâ€™t want to share with anyone anymore because I know the others will be hypocrite about my book. This is definitely common among humans.
Will you say..
â€œThank you for the wonderful breakfast. I know itâ€™s a hard day for you at workâ€¦â€œ
When your last bread is over toasted becomes black and the last sachet of tea mixed with salt instead of sugar.- Husband and wife –
â€œGood job son, keep up the good work. Target yourself to achieve 1% higher next time.â€œ
When your sales performance for the company only 5% from the gross company revenue and everyone expecting at least the lowest 20% contribution. â€“ Boss and staff –
â€œDo you need help? Let me think of a way to get your out of your troubleâ€œ
When you facing some serious troubles which caused by yourself for your own beneficial and pleasure instead of sharing with your friends. â€“ Friends â€“
However itâ€™s been a challenge for the past 6 months for me as I manage to settle 1 of the problem with many helps. God bless others so they can bless me in return of my prayers to my Father. I am happy and touched that God really hear me. Although, Father blesses me not in my favorable way, but I had no grudge about it instead I return with a smile. He made me brand new each time he blesses me.
You can call me a jovial person as I love to smile and love to be happy all times when I am with any companion. I believe that my laughter and smile will bring comfort to others. However I actually hired Godâ€™s soldier to fight against frustration, stress, depression, anger, jealousy, fear and sadness. When I am solitary at home, I will break down and lay down like a mentally retarded man seeking for comfort.
Today, I lost my faithâ€¦ I lost my optimism spiritâ€¦ I lost my personalityâ€¦ I lost everything used to motivate meâ€¦ I believe it just today and only today. Worriesâ€¦ Responsibilityâ€¦ Commitmentâ€¦ One completed comes a few other challenges which I am not ready forâ€¦ This type of challenges will never come across my mind and I never thought it really happens to me.
Can I take a day off and wander away from all technologyâ€¦ all communication.. all challenges? Just a day offâ€¦ ONE DAY to experience YOUR nature creation of this world, Father. A day of just me and You, Lord. You will be with me wherever I am going and You will definitely protect me and guide me.